wake up in the morning, no it's afternoon.

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woke up, oops i slept a lot from last night, it was around 10 o'clock.
Aaaargh, my head, its so heavy and painin :(
somehow sat on the scattered bed, now what? why I am on the bed this time? it's 19th september 2014, 3:11PM.
stop stop stop, its getting rewinded, stoppppp it someone,
Scene shifted again. I felt like someone holding my neck and voice is not coming out.
Ohhh no, i'm missing her badly.
whatsapp or facebook? facebook account 1? facebook account 2? where where where are her messages?


Ohhh, she sent her favourite smilies, awww those innocent smilies, those always melts me down, they melted me this time too.
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Oops I lost in you.
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huh chuck it now come back to real.
started typing fast that 
"those (smilies) does not work anymore, i'm only angry on you, please block me."
closed fb. *sobbing* *sobbing* *sobbing*
don't knw whats the time it is, feeling like m cryin frm last night.
Ohhh God, I have office. let me get freshen up and check in to ofc.

Oh no! she msg'd me

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She is typing, I can hear her type. I grip my chest and feel the suffocation. I can’t take it much longer if someone does not disconnect the internet connection or broke my laptop, If any of these does not happen then it would all be over.
another notification glown just beside friend request, ohh no it's a new message. i have to check it, check it. Oh no, that was unexpected.
My hand started shaking. It wants to browse through her timeline. It wants to browse those profile pics, but it can’t. I won’t let it. I thought I was safe from this. 
“Jony, she is your gf smiling in this picture?” friend asked from another table.
“Yes! Why?!” I replied.
“Just answer my question, I need to determine. Is she posing? Does she looks slutty?” friend asked back.
No, she doesn’t! She looks innocent and approachable, like when we first met her on facebook. - I replied.

Clicked on the "Photos" and went to "Profile Pictures".

"Oh, please," I sob, "please help me, why do I deserve this…I just started respecting myself as a man again and now this…"

left my office desk and went to room for some sleeping pills and slept.

accepted friend request

ohkey now next part of my writing, let's see what happens now...
and pals let me know also if u want me to continue this...
Ummm, ummm, ummm, whoops i clicked on "add friend", now? what's next? should i start texting first this time? mind said - no, no, no. not again. 
heart said - yes go for it, at least ask her how's she?
was thinking that lets listen to my mind this time and i controlled my hand to go thru keyboard somehow, but.. but.. but.. what's that again? just glown and numbered 1, just next to friend request notification? Is it any true emergency?

why she sent me friend request again?

after I completed writing up my first part, moving on to next part, this is short but i won't disappoint you pplz with my another next part. here you go...
"Breathe. Just breathe. She doesn't care about you anymore. She wants you to see how awesome her life is and how lonely you are."
[another thought] "No, she’s the lonely one. She probably just broke up and she wants me back."

friend request??

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Wohaaa! What's that glaring on my fb friend request icon? A little red blip on my radar. It's ……a friend request? ohkey calm down boy, calm down.
Click me! Click me! It bursts with suspense, Let me just relish in this moment. Here I go. Click. And…
Dear God. It can’t be. Not her.
Damn! Omg! it's her. it's 'X' o.O